real long sad face... :(

i am pouting right now because i won't be able to make it to GNO tonight.  :((((

and i am also sad because i've had to be away for so long.  my health has been declining over the past couple of weeks.  all areas of my life not including sleeping, taking medicine, eating, and trying to heal (a.k.a.-most things on the internet) have been put on the back-burner for a while.

i hope to be back soon, in full mind, body, and spirit!

hey y'all...

So, I've been a little... uh, distracted lately.  ;)

Things are going pretty well with the guy I am seeing right now, and that has taken a lot of my time and attention.

Soon, I want to write a whole blog about what's been happening with that, but I wanted to write this little note first.

I got a really happy package in the mail yesterday!!!  It's the beautiful bracelet that I won during the most recent GNO!  It's even cooler than it looked in the picture, and I am so thrilled to finally wear it.

I have had so much fun being a part of this community so far.  Everyone woman on here is so unique and I love reading all the thoughts and stories.  The insights and anecdotes are incredibly encouraging.

And I can hardly wait until the next GNO!!  :-)

happiness

i am sitting in a bookstore cafe, which just opened up right down the street from our apartment building. it's gray outside, and i love it.

this is the second day in a row of the gray (grey?). i thought that i would be sad when it came, but i'm not. i can't be sad for the month of incredibly gorgeous weather that i experienced. i took advantage of almost every single bit of it. walking aimlessly and accidentally catching something beautiful has been my life for a couple of weeks. every warm sunset, every fishy breeze (i love that smell!), every glimpse of a pack of sailboats, and every time snow-capped rainier has peered out above the skyline. even since some clouds have settled in, the glow of the city at night is reflected and sparkles even more. these sights i cannot describe, but they have each sent my soul rocketing into outer space.

last night i was reminded of the film "into the wild," and one of the last things he said was, "Happiness is only real when shared." i remember that phrase having a pretty huge impact on me when i first heard it, but last night it hit me harder.

how real are all these experiences i'm having on my own?

i don't mean that they aren't really happening. i mean: how long can these memories and feelings last if i'm the only one holding them?

i need some companionship.

SO i have found it for the time being...  you heard right, i'm dating again!  a real, live, adorable man.  i can't wait for what summer holds, to have the chance to share these experiences with him, to share in a piece of life with him.